You should see me on the first day. I have been working on a project for the last 10 days and you know what I haven’t achieved anything until now. Every day I spent 8 hours only on this project and the end of the day I get the same feeling again and again. I did not achieve anything today. Man sometimes I feel that one has to be as artist to do things perfectly. I have been trying daily to get things alright but I don’t know where I’m heading to. I asked one of my seniors if they have struggled similarly during their time when they did the same tasks which I’m doing now. Yes he replied saying this is how you learn. And he is right. I may not see what I’m learning from my work but I will be able to see as I move ahead. As they say bird’s eye view. One will be able to see the bird’s eye view of one’s past only in the long future. Anyway it’s been nice working at office.
One of the big reasons for me to move the present firm is that I wanted to measure my growth and work. I wanted to feel it as I work harder and harder every day. I used to work assiduously for long hours in my earlier organizations but I could never feel what I was making. I used to enjoy the work by not thinking of the outcomes. The outcomes like what could be the financial gain to the company. What could have I possibly changed to make the firm a better place to work. I could not see all these things. And then I moved to where I’m. Here as I wanted it for the last few years, I’m able to see the change I was making. Its slow. I mean the change was slow. It was not so much impacting the current situation but in a long run at an unexpected time I did feel the change that I made. Coming back to the subject, it all seems that I’m in a jumbled world and I have to align things as the way that they are supposed to. I think that’s the biggest challenge for every body. We can see things are out of order. Completely disoriented. And we know that we have to change them. There is nobody coming for help. Once when we begin to work, some people would have noticed this but let me put it in words here. When we want to change things or when know what we are doing is right and we do them with conviction, we actually don’t feel time. We might feel pressure and stress of work. The temple of our head begins to ache,,, aaah in other words we suffer headache but interesting we don’t feel time moving at all. This actually makes me feel that the great scientists actually did their work with so much of conviction that they dint feel time and after many years of work they invent/discover things. Perhaps they would have thought that something is wrong here or something needs to change. And they are lost in those thoughts and thoughts become things. Exactly. These things that they worked made them forget time.
Did you ever notice the more we look at time, the more curious we become in planning our work. What if we don’t have time. What if we don’t get to see the seconds or minutes. What if we could only count days or mid days. Life becomes easier. We don’t have to have hourly challenges. We can work as long as it takes to reach mid day or end of the day. This thought feels lighters as one can just keep working. One can stop thinking on the number of hours left in the day or the number of hours that one has to spend in office or any other work place. Since now that we don’t have to count time we might not have short targets. We will then have long targets like monthly targets or fort night. But what I wanted to say here is that when we have monthly targets we actually plan, fail and then learn from the failures and plan well. We do plan to set all these steps in order. But the plan fail learn re-plan automatically happens. We will not be able to realize this as we keep working because when we have longer targets our mind actually gets relaxed and try to invoke the basics methods of doing the task. And then we get back to basics at once. Now is the chance for the mind to think differently. To do the same task in a different way. We might fail but we will enjoy our work because we are doing it in our way. Sometime later we might feel that what we are doing is not achieving what we wanted. And then we begin to observe what we did and replan. This in other words is called experience or a very important learning.
So dear friends if we don’t feel time moving as we work we inevitably learn many things. Thus one becomes wise with time without feeling the movement of time but enjoying every moment of time.
I know this concept is very crazy but just get to feel me after a long day.
